COMING ROUND AGAIN

Written by Toby Philpott W/ Illustrations by Bobby Campbell

Don’t talk to me about journeys to the Underworld. I think of myself as one of those people who doesn’t dream. Oh, sure, ‘Everybody dreams!’ they say, with a knowing smile, ‘it’s just that some of us remember them’.

But I forget, I forget.

They tell me this stuff, these people who remember all their serial incarnations. Seriously, they emerge into our daily world from some curious realm that reacts directly to their thought, and calmly step into this entirely different reality – finding me haggard, hung-over, habitual – and they seem neither excited nor scared. Why? Because they not only remember their dream interludes but they also remember their continuity from the day before. Despite all the picaresque adventures of their nights, they seriously rejoin this apparently stable place I call ‘reality’ with quiet resignation. Maybe their consciousness is virtually continuous.

I can go no further. At this point I feel blind. When I finally shut my eyes I drift awhile then I vanish into the black – not for an eternity because as soon as I open my eyes again the world continues. It often seems as if no time had passed. When I felt frightened of the following day I used to stay up – waking hours last longer – if I fell asleep then OPENED my eyes I would face the feared morning (oh, I don’t know, dentist, exam, interview, opening night). And yes of course, sometimes the anticipation felt great – how do you think I ever let go into sleep then OPENED my eyes to another day?

But here I just refer to the good days. After all, I often seem to only get sixteen hours daily life to many other people’s twenty-four. So I get a bit behind having to do my dreaming in the daytime – pressure on – but then again, I don’t have nightmares, I guess (how would I know?)

They’ve done tests. It appears that sleep deprivation alone doesn’t make a human hallucinate in the waking state, but the deprivation of dreams does. So, imagine – me with no dreams, no surrealism, no lucidity, no monsters or jump-cuts, zooms or eternities, always stuck with gravity, and hunger and life-threatening situations that are REAL goddamit, how do you think I feel when I open my eyes to the same old world, still, without a break.

At the breakfast table the jet-setters come in with their travellers’ tales of mythic adventure in lucid dreams. Me, I feel like I haven’t slept (I often feel like I haven’t slept – sleeping often seems about as refreshing as blinking). Anyway, my ‘real, one and only’ world has to incorporate any fun I might get, and for sure it contains some problems I’ll have to confront – dead subtle, too, some of them.

Dream rememberers often appear refreshed by their dimensional vacation (though sometimes they report getting stuck at some psychic airport), and they also remember what they were doing in real time yesterday, and why – so they may well have a script and plan for the day ahead, as they move smoothly back to take up where they left off.

What I call sleep is like the black bar between the frames of a movie. Normally (awake) we don’t see it, but when someone like me slows down into sleep it takes an age (a split second) to cross that line. Many mornings it goes as smooth as a flicker book – next image, next day. Just some days I cross the line and it’s a CUT to another scene entirely – sure, there’s probably a connection, some editing gets real suggestive, but there are shock cuts, like coming round and finding someone tied you to a chair and a light shines in your eyes.

Oh, sure. Call me hero. ‘Talk! ‘ they said. I can’t talk after I wake up until I have had at least three cups of coffee, some days. At 150 milligrammes per cup I must use a gramme a day. A gramme of caffeine.

It keeps me in the awake world – better the frame you know than the one coming up. Funny that, most people think coffee speeds things up, and I take it to stay awake and get more time in the same frame.

cut

– somebody slugged me

– They put something in my drink

– what happened?

– It all happened so quickly

I find myself back again – seeing if I can figure out a sequence to this movie or find out if the cuts have a logic or merely a careless randomness to them?

Each morning I struggle to piece together what I remember of the time before the last blackout. With a continuous memory of previous frames I might have a chance to pick up a theme, at least – some kind of order apart from mere habitual days, another page of the book, semi-coherent action flickering by (or at least the image of it.) No abruptness interrupts my days.

I find belongings, sometimes, and notes to myself, when I wake up alone and I’m not tied to a chair or whatever. I have no idea what they mean, beyond what they say.

6:01

601Most every morning it takes me at least 2-3 shakes of a lamb’s tail to identify THE ALARM what kicked me from ZZZ satori.

Open fist smacks down again and again and again until what made the noise stop?

Oh Strange Numbers Beeping Box what do you want from me!?! Get up from what? The notion of time then occurs. Yes, right, but which one? Seven. I have to be somewhere at 7. Where? Work. Why? What? Okay. How long then until I must not sleep? Ultimately impossible mathematical contortions arise, abide, & cease. And what are habitually the final calculations? 10! More! Minutes!

(That I stayed up late to write this will hopefully amuse me in the morning’s groggy delirium)

[Nota bene: It didn’t]
bc – 12/04/06

DUBLIN IS BURNING

BLOOMING! On a bus to NYC, weather by Van Gogh. Reading that Usylessly unreadable book of odyssey, on the Mahayana, in the long memory, going forth by dayagain!

The Psilocybin speaks more of the many in THE VOICE OF ALL THE BLESSED. Metemorphoses of word & thought through Spacetime, this light as a riverGeneral Semantics: Our use of language can severely alter our experience of Universe. Meanwhile, mine animism eyes spy translucent streams of organic ether, the open system, Alleluia! The Neurogenetic jam box spins Akashic records as the wheels on the bus go round and round.

The King and I will have our talk soon, of that much I am certain. He’s been on his cell phone speaking in foreign tongues for an hour now, when his call is finished, we will speak of things.

The King is dressed in the very most resplendent fineries, a man of gold and diamond and silk. A full page of TEXT embroidered on his shirt, soul on ice! I’ve a Dogs Playing Poker tie amongst my usual dorky rags, I hope I look ridiculous enough!

DAMN! Look at Shortie right there! (Across the way) Only just made of electricity!

A shimmering bundle of shakti, I wish for to tell her! “Excuse me, Miss, but it seems you’re a manifestation of the Waters of Life which pour into the world inexhaustibly, thank you.” Bah! She already knows. Everyone already knows, after their own fashion, and changing everyday, smiling then to full capacity, so help me Fucking Christ! Finally, after 600 pages, Jeems Jokes drops the F BOMB.

Abu is an Ambassador from Nigeria. (Foolish artisan myself, sir, what news?)  The language he was speaking has no name and he thinks it odd that I would assume it might. In Africa they have over 2,000 languages, most of which are nameless, communication is problematic. All around the world we speak different dialects of one same language, Abu suggests. (The logo substance of which the word is merely a reference!? Snoogans.) The rise of tyrant war lords and the resulting cultural isolation balkanized the once common language of ancient Africa. (Falling tower mythos seem to recur.) He tells me then of the African land, of their abundance, of a world not yet but rather to may-be. (4 times was the city rebuilded, Hooo Fasa.) He likes dialectic, the universal language, a babelfish called JIVE swims towards Wagadu, and the bus stops in Manhattan. “It was nice to meet you Abu!”

There’s the MAIN MAN then! Fellow bus passenger, and smiling face. We’ve MADISON UNDERGROUND business now if ya’ll’ll excuse us, our adventure having only just begun. NYC sun shines us a welcome.

Hello to everyone! and how’s your deal? A fine thing indeed it sounds and to all the best of luck. More of everything please and do keep the change. Thanks a million and have a nice day!

Eventually I meet a girl who makes me look ridiculous enough, THE END.

Falling on Deaf Ears

Written by Toby Philpott w/ Artwork by Bobby Campbell

“riverrun, past Eve and Adam’s, from swerve of shore to bend of bay, brings us by a commodius vicus of recirculation back to Howth Castle and Environs.”

We learned many wonderful things on RAW‘s Tale of the Tribe course, but Giambattista Vico’s holistic view of human evolution and development as a cyclic progression, a spiral, really appealed to many of us and deserves further exploration. In spite of living in dangerous times for such thinking Vico perceived, and attempted to describe, history as a whole system, and humans as self-made, just as Darwin would later attempt to sum up how plants and animals formed themselves without a “creator”.

Moderns might describe Joyce’s fantastic novel Finnegans Wake (which implied this cyclic structure) as a hologram, but Vico might well have described it in the Hermetic or alchemical terms of a Microcosm/Macrocosm, “as above, so below.”

BABABADLGHARAGHTAKAMMINARRONN
KONNBRONNTONNERRONNTUONNTHUNN
TROVARRHOUNAWNSKAWNTOOHOOHOOR
DENENTHURNUK!

This 100 letter magical word appears on page one and some say it represents a clap of thunder, the Big Bang of Creation. To me it would work equally well as the sound of a slapstick fall (Finnegan falling off his ladder like a ton of bricks) – and, as the main character has fallen asleep, perhaps it could also remind us of a very loud snore.

The Gnostics seemed to think of The Fall (and the Original Sin) not as a human flaw – Adam eating the Forbidden Fruit – so much as something that “god” did. A demiurge fell for the temptation to slow Light down into Matter, to manifest Himself in the blissful void of the Great Mother, to create a world to rule over, and condemn people to a life and death struggle, etc. Confused echoes of this remain in the stories of Fallen Angels bringing humans fire and teaching the arts of civilisation, leading to the loss of an innocent life.

Vico worked with the Inquisition breathing down his neck, so he could not talk of an eternal cycle with no beginning, and had to start from the Creation in Genesis. He implied that after the Flood Noah’s descendants wandered for some time, losing their god-given culture and language and degenerating to a bestial life. (Without that pressure to fit the story to The Bible story, we just start with “cave-men” these days, and already know about ancient civilisations rising, flourishing and then falling).

Vico chose to start his description of the cycle with primitive humans immersed in nature, using only a symbolic language of gesture, monosyllables, signs, hieroglyphs and ideograms to describe their experience of the world. Deeply embedded, they viewed the world in a mythic sense, and felt themselves as part of the whole rather than as separate individuals. He thought that they would hold the elements in awe. Storms and the voice of the thunder would impress them greatly, and lightning snaking down might bring them fire with which they could keep warm while huddled in their caves. In the face of such “gods” those brute humans covered themselves with fur, and guiltily retreating to the privacy of caves (a recap of Adam and Eve cowering from God’s thunderous anger at their disobedience) so beginning the forming of human culture. The strong alpha males offered protection from predators, outlaws and other threats to the older or weaker, and to their families of women and children. Even if they seemed like giants, ritual may have proved necessary against these greater forces of nature, placating the “gods” and protecting the clan. Primitive religion thrives in the Age of the Fall…

As humans began to build shelters, cities, palaces and churches – develop communities and take up farming – they moved into what he called the Age of Heroes.

They gained more control over the elements, and the powerful either fought or joined in alliances, employing and ruling the poorer and weaker. Pharaohs, Kings and Queens appeared as demi-gods – a manifestation of an unseen deity. Laws, institutions, and rigid beliefs developed to control society. Their language became polysyllabic, and poetic – with the use of metaphor and simile – but few would understand this complex language – much of it remained a mysterious tool in the hands of the Priests and rulers. Rich families would have heraldic crests, flags, and other signs of power. Rules of chivalry and Romance (falling in love) might hold sway, but the social structure kept sharp divisions between rich and poor, as in feudal economies.

 

When the laws get applied fairly to all they inevitably restrict the abuse of power, and even the rich have to acknowledge and obey them, so gradually the use of logic and articulate common language leads to abstraction, generalization, free discussion, legal argument and rationality. Rigid, traditional values get challenged by a meritocracy and eventually this leads the way to “democracy”.

In the Age of the People all have similar rights, although freedom can feel frightening…

This stage, too cannot last, and Vico thought of the next stage (which he called the Ricorso) as a period of confusion and anarchy and self-indulgence. This could pave the way for a return to barbarism, a new upsurge of superstition, a neo-primitive phase, the resurgence of religion in all its forms, and a yearning once more for certainty, and the worship of a strong male authority figure, aka God.

Just as Joyce had written Ulysses to contain all the stories and struggles of humans manifest in one brief day in Dublin, portrayed by ordinary folk, so he structured Finnegans Wake as one long night, with several cycles of sleep and dreaming.

A falling asleep, a dreaming of all the tales of the tribe in all the languages of the world, an endless repetition of human relationships – marriage and a family ruled by the male in the age of gods, the fighting of brothers and the wiles of daughters in the age of heroes, the burial of the father in the age of the people – finally returning to consciousness at the break of day, to start the whole thing over.

We can see the Rise and Fall of the Roman Empire in Vico’s model, and we can see the Roman Catholic Church giving way to Feudal England, followed by the rational Enlightenment, etc. Many people adopted the cyclic theory of history. Marx liked the inevitability he saw implied in the class struggle of the weak to demand and win their rights. He overlooked the fact that we cannot stop at any one phase of the cycle, so the reversion to autocratic Stalinism from the initially “rational” Communism might have disappointed him if he had lived to witness it. Of course, many of us may relish this anarchic period of confusion – but this model stands as a warning of the risks as time rolls on…and a Fundamentalist religious mentality kicks in.

Perhaps we can learn to control how long each part of the cycle lasts? Perhaps McLuhan’s prediction of an oral/aural, post-literate, mythopoetic tribe shows one way that we could pass through the current age of change and movement and turbulence and opportunity to enter a mythical and wondrous ‘golden age of the gods’ , with every man and woman a star, without this time Falling for a Father Figure?


“As his title indicates (FINNEGANS WAKE), he saw that the wake of human progress can disappear again into the night of sacral or auditory man. The Finn cycle of tribal institutions can return in the electric age, but if again, then let’s make it a wake or awake or both. Joyce could see no advantage in our remaining locked up in each cultural cycle as in a trance or dream. He discovered the means of living simultaneously in all cultural modes while quite conscious. The means he cites for such self-awareness and correction of cultural bias is his “collideorscope”. This term indicates the interplay in colloidal mixture of all components of human technology as they extend our senses and shift their ratios in the social kaleidoscope of cultural clash: “deor”, savage, the oral or sacral; “scope” the visual or profane and civilized.”

-Marshall McLuhan

And Joyce felt tempted, god-like, to finally write his own sacred text, his last creation.

Here endeth the first lesson.

“The keys to. Given! A way a lone a last a loved a long the…”

Life in the Underground Press

Our intrepid group of plucky young punk rock artists arrived at the 2005 Philly Zine Fest with a wide assortment of indie comix & art, ready to introduce ourselves to a wider world, that we optimistically assumed would welcome us with open arms and wallets. I mean, why wouldn’t they?

We’d worked so hard, published so many comix, and were so gd excited, that the idea of failure had never really crossed our minds. I mean, why would it?

But after about 2 hours of complete invisibility to the passing crowd of festival attendees a desperate idea occurred to me. Give the comix out for free. It was clear we weren’t going to make any money from this event, and as poverty stricken as I was at the time, the point of the comix weren’t to make money anyway, it was to communicate. So I called out the audible, maybe much to the chagrin of some of my more business savvy collaborators, all of the comix on the table were now free.

And the momentum of the day swung rapidly in our favor! Our once desolate corner was now mobbed with people, we were in the mix! We were meeting the world and the world was meeting us and it was joyous and awesome.

At the end of the day we had put several hundred comix into circulation. It felt great. It felt like we’d taken a loss and turned it into a win. It felt like this was the thing that was going to lead to the next thing, and we’d look back on this day as a pivotal turning point.

As we left the venue, feeling entirely elated, I beheld a wild spectacle! The courtyard of the venue, in lovely West Philadelphia, covered in our discarded comix, blowing in the wind. Overflowing trashcans stuffed with our comix, spilling out into an indifferent universe. Our comix were literal garbage. In light of such dramatic evidence it would have been tough to deny that I’d made a tactical blunder, but I did it anyway, and with a tightly balled fist raised to sky, defiantly declared, “THEN WE’LL CHOKE THEIR RIVERS WITH OUR DEAD!”

THE “MIND” INDESTRUCTIBLE

bc comic made for Robert Anton Wilson’s Tale of the Tribe MLA course (2005)

The funny chap with the stash is supposed to be Ezra Pound,
a problematic fav who wrote:

“4 times was the city rebuilded, Hooo Fasa
Gassir, Hooo Fasa dell’ Italia tradita
now in the mind indestructible, Gassir, Hooo Fasa
with four giants at the four corners
and four gates mid-wall Hooo Fasa
and a terrace the colour of stars”
– Canto 74

RAW explains:

“Hooo means somthing like hooray or hallelujah
Fasa = the tribe or the king

From an African “tale of the tribe”
collected by Frobenius

Wagadu = a divine, or magick, city
which existed four times
and each time got lost again
first thru vanity
second thru lying
third thru greed
fourth thru feuding

Wagadu still exists in some sense
“in the mind indestructible”
and will appear again
when all people transcend
vanity, lies, greed and vendettta

Hooo Fasa

Hooo Fasa

gets repeated 10 times at the end of the song

Hooo Fasa “

and a George Kearns quote by way of Eric Wagner:

“…the unnamed African seekers of a city of the mind, Wagadu (both divinity and city), whom we come to recognize by their cry, “Hooo Fasa.” They can metamorphose into each other, as they do in Frazer, to become Isis-Kuanon, Isis-Luna, Circe-Titania, or Adonis-Tamuz.”

I take the “mind” Indestructible as the non-local class of all minds, which after all is No Mind!

RAW comments:

“You captured the essence of Pound’s use of the Sudanese legend —
even though rain and industrial waste are hardly equal conditions
in the death camp where a rapist and murderer was hanged every day.

Hooo Fasa”

Fair Enough!

QUARTERS EXERCISE

Robert Anton Wilson’s famous “Quarters Exercise” from Prometheus Rising:

To explore the Thinker and the Prover, try the following:

1. Visualize a quarter vividly, and imagine vividly that you are going to find the quarter on the street. Then, look for the quarter every time you take a walk, meanwhile continuing to visualize it. See how long it takes you to find the quarter.

2. Explain the above experiment by the hypothesis of “selective attention” —that is, believe there are lots of lost quarters everywhere and you were bound to find one by continually looking. Go looking for a second quarter.

3. Explain the experiment by the alternative “mystical” hypothesis that “mind controls everything.” Believe that you made the quarter manifest in this universe. Go looking for a second quarter.

If the reader is a scientist, be not alarmed. This refers not to you but only to those benighted fools in the opposite camp who refuse to recognize that your theory is the only reasonable one. Of course.

4. Compare the time it takes to find the second quarter using the first hypothesis (attention) with the time it takes using the second hypothesis (mind-over-matter).

5. With your own ingenuity, invent similar experiments and each time compare the two theories—”selective attention” (coincidence) vs. “mind controls everything” (psychokinesis).

6. Avoid coming to any strong conclusions prematurely. At the end of a month, re-read this chapter, think it over again, and still postpone coming to any dogmatic conclusion. Believe it possible that you do not know everything yet, and that you might have something still to learn.

Here’s my results from 2004, with a response from RAW:

A) Experience:
I never found the quarter in my vividly premeditated scenario, heads up on asphalt, though after eight days of sensitizing I did eventually find a tails up quarter in a patch of grass at a local playground. (Gut instinct leans towards selective attention on that 1st’n.) Using the “selective attention” filter thereafter I only found quarters within their normal parameters, in between seats of cars, in my wallet, pants pockets, within my art supplies, etc. I consistently deemed each and every of these quarter finds as non-applicable as they were too far removed from my premeditated scenario. Though perhaps implicit within the “selective-attention / just-a-coincidence” mindset is the “that doesn’t count!” philosophy.

Two days after adapting the idealistic mind over matter quarter hunter attitude an odd thing started happening. Quarters started appearing on my computer terminal at work. Initially filed under “that doesn’t count.” So as my addiction demands of me, I done spent them quarters on Mountain Dew Soda Pop. Next day: more quarters! (still not counting) and as a true caffeine addict my mind is always on where my next 4 bits are coming from and so of course I spend the quarters again. This goes on for days! Eventually I figured out my friends were gifting me quarters as per my well known usage of Mountain Dew Soda Pop to push through the fatigue of working all day after doing art stuff all night. So eventually I started paying back into the quarter pile and now, even a month later, everyday about two dollars worth of quarters flow mysteriously through my local spacetime. The consistency of the phenomena eventually pushed passed my strict quarter finding rules and I decided that this process was a very legitimate fulfillment of the exercise. And interestingly enough it occurred to me that this was quarter finding that was much more telekinesis than selective attention. The quarters are made manifest by a non-verbal communication between me and my friends. Well initially non-verbal that is, the “quarter pile” now exists as an acknowledged function of our environment.

B) Tentative Conclusion:
Apparent telekinesis produced quarters much faster and in greater quantities than supposed selective attention. In fact: hypothetically all quarters found may have originated telekinetically, whereas not all quarters found could have been attentively selected.

C) Initial Aphorism:
One may rule out selective attention to a greater degree than one may disregard Telekinesis

CHAPTER ONE {EX: 5-6} Misc Parts Commune

A) Experience:
I devised my own Selective Attention vs. Mind-Controls-Everything experiments revolving around my job in the Parts Department of a Jeep Garage. My job consists essentially of finding part numbers in our computer mainframe of whatever particular doohickey has been requested. “I need a Neutral Safety Switch for a 99 TJ,” and so I navigate the catalog as such until I find the corresponding code that I then plug into our database which gives me the space-time location of that particular whatcha-ma-call-it. The hook being: I don’t know a goddamn thing about cars! (why someone who doesn’t know about cars works at a garage is a tale for another day!) So when people call, or come in, or when the techs come to the counter; 8 times out of 10 I’m encountering a completely alien language.

Thus my experiment:
I know the parts exist within the catalog; I just have to find them.
Which orientation finds parts quicker?
Selective-Attention:
The parts exist within the System. I just have to find them.
Mind-Controls-Everything:
The system exists within me; I can make the parts come to me.

The Selective-Attention Filter works well within a non-pressure situation. If I’m not busy and actually have the time to leisurely peruse the parameters of the sub-divisions, I generally find what I’m looking for with reasonable swiftness. In fact, the parts are there, I just have to find them. Though in a situation where the heat is on, phones ringing, three techs ragging at the counter, two customers up front: The accuracy and promptness of my work suffers greatly within the attentively selected environment. (I suppose because an element of “inadequacy” enters my situation. The parts are there I just can’t find them: at which point I might suppose myself “stupid” which only further inhibits my situation.)

The Mind-Controls-Everything Filter works just as well as Selective-Attention within non pressure situations. Clear my Mind and yes indeed I just seem to “know” (guess!) where to look. And actually in high pressure situations, I find myself not giving a fuck about whatever I should suppose as urgent circumstances. And yes indeed the Parts seem to just “appear luckily,” of course not always, but even in those situations, the whole episode feels novel and entertaining, allowing me to keep my cool and handle my Biz.

B) Tentative Conclusion:
When using only the Selective Attention filter I cut myself off from a well spring of calming and assuring themes of mind; giving me less stability within turbulent circumstances.

When using the Mind-Controls-Everything filter I find I still use the Selective Attention filter as well, its automatic, and its pragmatic value suggests no need to exert effort to disable it, and additionally reconnecting with the well spring of creative-playful-tranquility yields experiential positivity: Win, Lose, or Draw.
“Joe Cool knows where that clockspring is, give em a sec, dude!”

C) Initial Aphorism:
Selective Attention operates exclusively; Playful Telekinesis operates inclusively

RAW RESPONDS:

Bobby —

Congratulations on yr work in general
and especially on the quarters!
As E J Gold of the Fake Sufi School said
“The quarter exercize alone paid
for the book!”

& now you know where all them thar 23s
come from……

REINCARCERATED PARTS BOYZ

Once upon a whatchamacallit, MC BEN and I were posted up at the parts counter at Baker Jeep Eagle, whiling the day away on the early internet, probably blasting The Pretty Tony Album, when JEFF HARRIS burst into the scene bragging about his amazing mystical powers!

In this case, he was claiming to have mastered the art of reincarnation, such that he could come back in whatever form he wished.

He’d been clinically dead once before, IIRC, though the story shifted back and forth between him being shot in the head and a car accident that sent his head crashing into the dashboard radio. In either case, he was left with an indent in the center of his forehead that gave the impression of an anti third eye, and a predisposition towards seizures. An early archetype of Blvd mythology.

He once gave me puppy dog eyes while trying to convince me to come smoke crack with him and a sex worker in the side bathroom. When I very politely declined his generous offer he pouted for the rest of the day. Then the next day he pulled a knife on me, threatening to cut me up if I ever engaged in that very same activity that the day before he begged me to indulge in. This isn’t inconsistent behavior, of course, just multidimensional characterization :)))

So when a twice born dark prophet claims to have mastered the endless cycle of death & rebirth, you might as well hear him out!

I figured I’d put him to the task of solving the central mystery of Indian Religion & Philosophy:
“What if you don’t want to come back at all?”

Without hesitation, he exclaimed: “Follow me!”
We walked out into the back lot, and he pointed down at the asphalt:
“See that right there?”

The only thing I could see was a small, insignificant pebble.
“This?” I said, holding up the little rock.

He smiled, nodded, and walked away.

I’m 99% sure he was just doing a bit, but on the other hand, I kinda maybe got his point…

BEHOLD THE SOPHIC HYDROLITH!

“You hear what you want to hear, but you believe what you know!”
– JEFF HARRIS


[WILL INSERT AUDIO OF JH’S STORY ABOUT THE FOGHAT CONCERT ONCE I FIND IT]

“REJECTED” PROLOGUE & MIXTAPE

Why REJECTED is a bad comic that nobody needs to read, but I love it anyways!

REJECTED is comprised of fragments from 4 different rejected comic book proposals circa 2003-04. In hindsight, they were all pretty crummy comics and deserved to be rejected. I had also made the mistake of basing characters on myself and my girlfriend at the time, so when I got dumped shortly thereafter the premise of the comix quickly became null and void.

So I’m 23 years old, moving into my brother’s basement, with a box full of reject comix pages, and no prospects of any kind. What do I do? I didn’t want all that work to go completely to waste, so I cut up all my rejected comic proposals into a single absurd story, and slapped on an embarrassingly ridiculous ending.

I then submitted my meta-reject comic to the Delaware Division of the Arts for some residency grant program they have, knowing I’d never get it, but just wanting to keep it pushing. The response I got back was amazing! Not only did I not get the award, but the rejection letter contained a lengthy, almost angry, denouncement of my work. Most rejection letters are very brief, “we regret to inform you… thanks and best wishes,” but this was something else entirely! The person who was tasked with judging my work didn’t just want to reject it, they wanted to destroy it. My favorite line, amidst all the name calling, and one that I enjoyed so much that I included it in future editions of the book, complained that it “never approaches the qualities of fiction found in even its most experimental forms.”  Admittedly this is certainly how delusions function, but I began to think maybe I was actually on to something after all…

So yes, against the better judgement of experts and professionals all over the country, this comic exists. It’s not particularly great, though perhaps worth a gander, in a rubber necking type of way, and however awkward it is in parts, I’m very proud there’s something instead of nothing.

(Also, following the lead of my fav early 2000’s comic writers, Chynna Clugston, Jim Mahfood, and Dan Robinson, the comic features soundtrack queues.)

So here’s the REJECTED MIXTAPE

P.S. The original edition of this comic, the one that was ripped to shreds by the Delaware Division of the Arts, was assembled at 1 AM in the Kinkos that used to be on 202 in Wilmington, DE, with the help of a nice lady called Samantha. She wandered into the store wearing a hospital gown and bracelet, presumably having had a rough evening. She asked what I was doing and if I needed any help. Samantha was under the impression that maybe she was helping a famous artist with what would be a hit book. I would have dissuaded her of this notion, but I suspected, in that moment, she needed to be a part of something much bigger and better than I could actually offer, so I let her think what she thought. She collated the pages as they were coming off the printer, it really was quite helpful! She asked for a signed copy of the comic as a parting gift, as if this exchange was in any way worth her while, but I hope the misunderstanding brought her some comfort and/or joy :)))